When I first started this new way of eating, there was a little part of me that still thought this was all temporary- that once I started losing weight, there would be very little struggle because 'I got it'. Not that it would be a short road- I'm in this for the long run- but wow, I never thought I'd be struggling for this long.
No weight loss for weeks and then a lot of drama...not good for an emotional eater. The hungries got me.
Last week I took off work because of the papal visit. Here in Philly the traffic was a hot mess; roads being closed all over, and it seemed like it would be better for me if I stayed home and wrote, cleaned, and other mom/wife/writer stuff.
But being at home was a danger because whenever I took a break, the fridge was only a few rooms away. I snacked on good stuff, but there was also crackers, cheese and chips. Yep, I made the mistake of 'treating myself' and ate almost the whole bag of chips- and Cheeze-its. Not in one sitting, but I still ate too many snacks and too many helpings at dinner.
I was feeling lazy mid-week, and didn't cook much; take-out pizza and Chinese were added to the menu. The Chinese food was mostly veggies and meat which was a good thing, but there was rice as well as fried food too.
Basically, I blew it. Big time.
Now I need to deal with feeling bad about my choices, and still deal with the personal dramas of being a working mom/wife/writer. Ugh.
I'll get through this with God's help- I know I will. But I do get more than a bit tired of all the bumps in the road. Especially when those bumps taste like chicken or pepperoni!
Lessons learned:
Taking breaks from work doesn't mean taking breaks from eating plans.
Stop buying chips!
Treating myself isn't a treat- it a step backwards.
Find a friend to talk to about personal and eating drama.
If all else fails, reboot again!
I hope and pray I get out of this funk soon- it's not doing anyone any good- especially me. Spinning my wheels is better than throwing myself into reverse, and though I hit a few snags, I'm getting back on course to lose weight!
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