I'm Fighting Fat is about my journey weight loss! Come join me!

I'm fat. And I've been fat for far too long. It's time to start making changes, and this blog is to document those changes, along with a few tears, and even some laughs along the way.

This blog isn't about is going on a fad diet - in fact no 'diet' foods or pills are going to be used during this entire process! Any use of the word 'diet' in this blog will simply refer to foods being eaten, not any special plan or 'can or can't have' food lists.

I'll be eating a variety of foods, as unprocessed as possible. The plan is not to cut out or severely cut down, but to help my body (and mind) realize when I truly am hungry, and not depend on the clock to tell me when mealtimes are. Moderation will be the rule in both eating and exercising.

Join me on my journey, my trials, my failures and successes to discover a thinner me and possibly inspire you to lose weight too, without all the diet hype!

Tuesday, May 26, 2015

Week Nineteen: The Dear-God-I-Need-To-Recalculate New Eating Lifestyle

It's been a weird but wonderful week.

In my last post I told you I went to the nutritionist's office to get 'unofficially' weighed in. What I didn't mention was I used a different scale. My last two weigh-ins were unofficial (one was on her scale and one wasn't), but I wrote them down anyway.

My official appointment was Thursday. The readout was 292.5 It looked like I gained a pound.

That was impossible. I know this because I had two days that were almost zero calories days this week (because I exercised most of them off), and I didn't go more than 100 calories over my 1500 limit. Something was off.

I went to the 'unofficial' scale, and it said 290.5. This scale said I lost another pound!

In my eagerness to find out my weight, I screwed up and used a different scale. Bad idea.

She checked my chart and my last 'official' weigh-in (about 4-5 weeks ago) was 300.5. I am now officially 292.5. That's an eight pound loss! So I didn't really break my plateau last week, but that's okay- I still lost a decent amount of weight, and stayed within the 1.5-2 pound loss a week ratio.

That. Is. Awesome.

The next time I want to check in before my appointment, I better make sure I use her scale next time- or add two pounds to the other scale. At least until I can get my own and calibrate hers and mine so the scales will be in sync with each other.

The next mini goal is to be under 292, then get into the 280's by next month. We set some new exercise goals now that my exercise bike is busted beyond repair (it was discontinued five years ago, unfortunately, and I worked the snot out of it and broke the pedal!), including talking my husband into taking walks with me. He needs to walk as well, just to clean out his lungs after working in a mill all day.

Even though the numbers got messed up and I'm heavier than I thought I was, it's still a triumph- eight pounds is a good thing! I can't wait to see the scale next month- I wonder what numbers I'll see next time?


Lessons learned:

Use the same scale, in the same spot for accurate numbers.

Using a real bike will be different than using an exercise bike- I have to adjust the effort vs. the time I spent on the exercise bike to lose the same amount of calories.

Walking is always good, but better if someone walks with you. Especially if he's your Schmoopsiepoo.

Swimming can be added to the exercise list when the park pool opens- and the mile walk round-trip won't hurt either.

Don't dread sweat- or pulling weeds in the garden.


This weekend was a holiday, and I ate stuff that wasn't the best for me, but still maintained most of my caloric goals. This week? Experimenting with salads!

Monday, May 18, 2015

Week Eighteen: The Dear-God-Every-Half-Pound-Counts! New Eating Lifestyle

I had to postpone my Nutritionist appointment, but they still let me weigh myself before the weekend.

I'm now 291.5- I lost another 5.5 pounds!

This is not only a weight loss celebration, it's a benchmark- all thanks to that little half pound. This is the lightest I've been since I was pregnant with my daughter fourteen years ago

I had done the diet thing and the exercise thing, but the lowest I'd ever gotten was 292 pounds. I couldn't break that plateau. I'd remain there for weeks, then give up and gain all the weight back- and more. My weight was a yo-yo going in the wrong direction.

To be honest I really thought I'd lost more- 5.5 pounds is a little less than 1.5 pounds a week, and despite the fact I didn't exercise as much, I was still staying within my calorie counts. I was hoping to have lost more.

But when I saw that number 291.5, I had to smile. I'd broken a major plateau! How awesome is that?

My next goal is still 275, but I forgot all about this mini-goal until I looked at the scale.

It feels really, really, good

This weekend I was running a community event, and burned the exact amount of calories I consumed. Don't ask me how that happened. I couldn't calculate that if I tried! Calorie-wise, Saturday was a wash- 0 calories are hanging on the hips...WOOHOO!

I'll be working at the polls this Tuesday, so as long as I eat a good breakfast and take something for lunch I should be okay and not overindulge. Unless there's pizza. I might have that if they order it. Total yummo.

It's amazing what a little half-pound will do. It really does matter! That tiny weight loss turned a frustrating situation into a triumph. I'm encouraged to do more than I ever have, because that nasty plateau is shattered!

I go to the Nutritionist this week for my official weigh-in. I'm so excited to tell her about my breakthrough!

Lessons learned:

Every half-pound counts.

Stop grousing about how much you should have lost- the point is you lost.

Mini goals can be more encouraging than bigger goals.

Step up the exercise- even on hot/cold/wet/windy days- and days you ache from overdoing it at events.

Recognize that 0 calorie days are rare, and should remain so. Major calorie burns are good here and there, but not on a regular basis. 

Learn that sweating isn't a bad thing. 


That last lesson is a tough one- I hate to sweat. Unfortunately I'm really good at it, especially when it's humid. (That's more fortunate than unfortunate body-wise, but you get the idea.) It's already in the high eighties and sometimes nineties, and I look like I'd just been swimming after doing yard work- not to mention the sweat in my eyes and droplets dripping off of my hair. It's times like these I know someone important is going to knock on the door, when I'm a hot, sweaty mess. Bleah!

Water weighs a lot more than fat does, so maybe this can be a good thing- especially if I take a shower before seeing my nutritionist! Every half pound matters...right? Including sweat!

Monday, May 11, 2015

Week Seventeen: The Dear-God-Where-Did-My-Chin-Go New Eating Lifestyle

In the beginning, I had two chins.

I should have had more, but instead of a bunch of teeny-tiny ones, I have my regular chin and one really, really big chin that goes down the entire length of my neck. Sexy, I know.

One day I passed by my mirror and noticed that "Big Chin" wasn't so big anymore. In fact, I could even glimpse my jawline and part of my 'real' neck. Sometimes you don't need a scale to tell if you're still losing weight!

For the first time in a very long time, I smiled at my reflection. 

Last week was a calorie disaster. This week I was diligent in what I ate, and recorded everything, finding new ways to lose calories since I broke my exercise bike. Did you know two hours of moderate housework can burn over 600 calories? I didn't. And now that I do, cleaning the house doesn't seem so bad after all.

A skinnier chin and a cleaner house- life is gettin' good here at the Brubaker's!

Oh I was one big ache the next day, but I expected that. Stretching new muscles for two hours straight isn't easy, but I had the weekend to recover. I'm still not sure whether to be grateful that I have such a messy family or not. I have a great reason for burning calories, but I still wish the house would stay clean!

As for the yard, all the plants are planted, and all that's left is yard work. get the irony? All that's left...as if I only have to do one or two things back in that jungle of twigs, debris and leaves. Nature is almost as bad as my kids when it comes to keeping things neat.

My husband is also noticing the change in my body's shape when he hugs me or snuggle on the couch. Let's just say he's a happy camper- he is no matter what shape I'm in, but I think he likes the changes as much as I do.

This week is going to be an active one. I'm running a community yard sale fundraiser for my local recreation center, and I usually run the concession stand. This year I'm learning to make cotton candy, and I'll have an hour or two to practice before the big day. I've been looking up videos on making flower shaped ones, and the best part is my kids can eat my mistakes. No worries with calories here- I hate the fluffy stuff! 
I'll be there at the crack of dawn marking spots and doing both the set-up and break-down. It's a long day, and that doesn't include the running around I have to do during the week. And this is on top of housework, editing and writing. I think I have an appointment with my nutritionist too, so at least I'll know if I lost anything before the event- except for my wits. They left ages ago.

Lessons learned:

Finding alternatives to exercise equipment can be a challenge, but can benefit me and my family more when I'm creative in my solutions.

Just do it. Nike had the right idea. Stop dreading the workout and get it done

Having a regular breakfast and a lighter lunch helps keep the calories under control during dinner. 

If I know dinner is on the light side, I have a fruity snack after lunch so I don't get overly hungry.

I really need to plan dinner menus better!

When in doubt about weight loss, look in the mirror and see the positive changes.

Now that I'm under 300 pounds, Get. A. Scale.


Food-wise, this was a good week. Body-wise, this was a great week. Now all I have to do is be consistent with my exercise and behave myself concerning calories, and I'll be down to 275 lbs. (my next goal) in no time!

Monday, May 4, 2015

Week Sixteen: The Dear-God-I'm-Having-A-Lousy-Cal-Week New Eating Lifestyle

Calorie-wise, it's been a rough week.

I was over my 1500 goal more often than I was under it. My exercise bike pedal broke. And i felt myself slipping back into old habits because we had company over the weekend.

But I promised myself I'd be honest in my calorie logging, and I didn't like what I saw this week.

I was over 2000 calories at least twice.
I was over 1700 calories at least twice.
I didn't exercise each day. When the bike broke, and I should have found other ways to spend those calories (at least 500 of them), but I decided to 'take a break' instead.

Two events over the weekend destroyed my calorie counts. One was a face-painting event with a pizza shop next door, and I bought a cheese steak. I ate half for lunch and half for dinner, then took the family out for ice cream afterwards. Let's just say there's a lot of calories in a two scoop cone with jimmies- especially when the ice cream is locally made and are called Raspberry cheesecake and chocolate raspberry swirl chocolate chip. In a waffle cone. A very rare treat i enjoyed immensely.

And then came Sunday.

There's something about cookouts that just make you want to eat more. We had friends over and I not only had a fantastic chicken sausage (on a roll no less) but a cheeseburger as well. I was only going to eat half, but I ate the whole thing. Then my husband brought out sliced bananas and strawberries- nice, redeeming fruit- and a homemade chocolate whipped cream topping. 
Had I behaved myself earlier, the topping would've been okay. It didn't matter, because I took some anyway. This is the first week where I completely lost control.

I'm concerned that I'll fall back into my old habits again. I don't think during this entire plan have I eaten so much in a two day period! Even now, early in the morning, my stomach is growling, and it hasn't done that much since the first two weeks. I'm also concerned that this is going to derail my weight loss. Clothing is still getting loose, so I think I have a good chance at redemption.

Walking is going to have to take precedence until the bike is repaired or replaced. I've no idea what to do on rainy days- maybe put on some tunes and dance? I'd become accustomed to my forty-five minute biking sessions- I hate making abrupt changes, but something has to be done to burn some serious calories, otherwise I'll be gaining again.

If this continues, my nutritionist might cut the calorie count. Honestly, I don't know if I can even do that at this point! When I stop panicking, I'll use this setback to spring forward, but for now, my confidence is waning just a bit.

Lessons learned:

Stop blaming events for falterings. 

Plan ahead and drink a lot of water at social events instead of eating food.

If you want to eat two foods, half the servings and savor them.

Find alternative exercises to not only use as a safety net when something breaks, but allow some variety in the workout. Target different muscle groups!

Get the veggies cut for snacks soon after you buy them and stop waiting until you're hungry.

Menu plan, menu plan, menu plan! 

When you lose control, plan more exercise and/or intake less calories in the next few days after the setback(s).


It's been a rough week, but I'll get through it. The best part about blogging all of this is I can look back and see my progress, and that helps me move forward! This week I'll be planning a lighter menu- clear broth soups, salads for lunch, more veggies on the plate at dinner- anything filling that will get those counts back under the 1500 mark. 
As for exercise, it's a beautiful warm day, so I'll be taking a nice long walk!